Everything Under the Son

I have been thinking alot about the journey I have been on. I have no doubts God has a plan for me through the journey. Probably many plans. Some of those plans may have already come to be, as God has used the events of the last 6 years to grow me into a different person, hopefully closer to the person He wants me to be. Some of those plans have yet to come to be, and that is okay too. God's plan on God's time.

But as I think about sweet Carson, and the journey of losing him, of handing him over to Heaven, I can't help but hope that the plan includes a way for me to bring glory to God. I don't know what He has planned for our story...but I know He has a plan. Whether I am sharing by speaking to others, writing about it in books/children's books, singing about it, or simply sharing through this blog, I want the Lord to be glorified.

Though I have many unanswered questions, there are some things I know for sure.

God is love.

God is joy.

God is in control.

God knows better than I.

God is God...always and forever...and I will praise His name all the days of my life.

NOTHING is going to change those truths. Not my worldly anger over losing Carson, not my doubt or questions of 'why'...NOTHING. My God is the God of yesterday, today, and tomorrow, and He is the God of the universe. He is the God that rejoiced with me when we discovered I was pregnant with Carson, and He is the God that carried me when Carson died. He is the God that continues to love me when I don't deserve it, and He is the God who never walks away. I may waiver, but He never does.

My prayer is this...through all of the journey, Lord, be glorified. Show me Your plan, and help me to tell Your story. Lead me to Your ways, and direct my paths to fulfill Your plan for me. Amen.